neuroticisms

In some ways my neuroticism has worn with age, the way my quick temper has been somewhat tamed by years, but in other ways it's intensified and my awareness of it has intensified in step. I would like to check my email less, write fewer impulsive emails, write less in general, remember little things less, be able to walk away more, be less sensitive, think less at night. Ideally I'd want to keep the good in all of that and leave the bad, but whatever it is that makes me this way doesn't let me choose. Or else I haven't tried hard enough.